News

7/21/21 --More news but this news I am not adjusting to, all that well.  I think that I mentioned on here that my dad passed away three years ago, since then my mom has been working on her health and emptying her house of all of dad's stuff, and the hoarded stuff that he accumulated.  A long time family friend has been helping her to unload all the stuff from our old bedrooms, from the basement and attic.  Her cleaning crew has also been a great help to her.  Of course, every time I have gone down, I have helped her.  

  Just in the last month or so, she has purchased a condo, in her home state.  That means that she will no longer be within a short driving range for me to go and visit, where I can drive spend a day, then drive home.  I gotta admit that I have very mixed feelings about this due to not being close to my sister or my own son, relationship wise, so I feel like I will be alone.  Her condo is big enough that I could live with her for a while, til I get a place of my own.  Yet, I can do any kind of moving, especially two states away, due to my male cat, who happens to be 21 yrs old.  Yes, he is 21 yrs old and has renal failure.  He has lost significant weight and he is a lousy at traveling in the car.  Just a simple trip to the vet, 10 min away, he gets stressed enough to vomit.  Therefore, that tells that me that he wouldn't travel two states away, very well if at all.  I believe that that type of trip would possibly kill him, so I have to wait til after he is gone. Although I am not looking forward to that, by any stretch of the imagination.

 

 

This is my Bear, he is 21 yrs old.  In that photo he is staring at me because he wants fed, like hadn't fed him before I sat down to work.

He is one that doesn't travel well, at all.  I have had him since he was a kitten, I already had to put his brother down as he had cancer, or something close to that.  This boy has been with me thru some very difficult times, so losing him is going to be very difficult on me.  If it wasn't for him and his sister Penni, I don't know if I would have made thru that very dark time of depression, as easily, altho it wasn't that easy.

The other thing that is keeping me from making a major move is, that I don't have enough money saved to move.  I have been working now for 9 months and saving money that long, but it's not enough saved to move.  Now, with the work hours cut back to around 24hrs or so, and my second raise taking effect this week, I am making enough to survive.  When fall arrives and the hours increase back to normal, I will increase the saving so speed up the amount going into savings.  That way by next year, at this time, I will have the financial ability to move anywhere.

The options are to where my mom will be, closer to where I go to church or possibly closer to my son.

Slowing Down

5/27/21 --Here we go, now is the time of year where we have to either take a leave of absence or reduce our hours  and the call volume drops thru the summer.  I thought we had to do both so I reduced my hours and took 2 weeks off, but then received an email asking which on i wanted. Told her to reduce hours.  I don't think that I can handle 2 weeks off in a row.  The way I reduced my hours still leaves me 24 hours a weeks, for sure.  I will update my availability in the fall tho.   

    I have been talking this man in who is now working in Alaska.  I thought he had stopped due to my not helping hime with money.  After about a month he finally called me and had told me that he had lost the internet for a while. 

7/21/21

  Well, this man that I was talking to, has pretty much stopped talking to me.  Basically, he claimed to have went to Alaska, for an engineering job, with an oil rig, with Exxon Mobil.  Now, he went up there, allegedly, in March ish. We talked a couple times while he was supposedly, up there, but when I wasn't able to help him with money to get his equipment up to him from Canada, he slowly stopped calling me.  So, he went from claiming to be, not like those past men that have contacted me but he has proven that he is.  I haven't heard from him in months, something of which I am not surprised about.

  There is another man that I first met when I was on e-harmony.com.  After several years of occasionally chatting with him on google chat and him stopping by for a couple of hours, I decided that I have had enough.  I just want something more that what he has been giving me, and what he is able to.  He is so married to his work.  He pretty much works 7 days a week. He travel all over the same state that I work in, but I just can't get my head around the fact that he works so freaking much.  Any way, I am so ready for something better than he can offer.  So, consequently, I finally broke down, messaged him to let him know that he no longer had to worry about me.  That I want more than he can give me, right now.  I let him know that he no longer has to feel pressured to try and get to where he is close enough to be able to stop by to spend time with me.  Surprisingly enough, he didn't even offer a response, an "I am sorry" or anything.