Lesson Learned

12/31/17 --  I do believe I have learned a very interesting lesson, very recently.  

  Sometimes it is an extremely good thing when you CANNOT  cross your beliefs.  Over the last several months, I have in a relationship with a man that I had initially met on a matching website, he was the second man that I met.  Anyway,  I have this very strong belief that one shouldn't have sex before marriage.  Mind you, this is an overall statement, but for me it is quite personal.  I have believed this for quite a long time.  While I have been with this man, I have really been trying to overcome my beliefs, to give him what he wants, which is sex.  To be brutally honest, I have wanted it too but I haven't been able to cross those beliefs.  

  I am quite thankful that I haven't been able to do that.  I fully realize that I really don't want cross my beliefs.  The problem is this man does have some emotional attachment, I think, to me.  He expressed his feelings to me, last night, before he left to go back home.  I have been thinking about what he said along with the message that was spoken, at church, this morning.

  I really need to figure out how to put an end to this, gracefully.  Have been feeling like I could be stringing this man along, without even wanting to trying to.

Again...

12/23/17 -- So, I got a call to start at the printing company, again this week.  I got the gallon Monday and I started on Tuesday.  I got a total of three days at the company, because the company is closed on Friday. Next week, I will get four days because they are closed on Monday which is Christmas day.  Which is fine, because I do get a break from getting up too early, I don't have to babysit.  The grandpa is off as is the little girl from school.  I will most likely still go into work at the same time, just so I don't have to get up as early.
  The couple that I talked about, in a earlier post, has calmed down, to a point.
The drama seems to have come to an end and I have a much better picture of what is really going on there, then I did.  It seems that the man is the cause of a lot of the drama because he says one thing, do another.  Or, he starts but doesn't finish completely.  Then he is the one that complains when he is the one that really isn't helping.
  However, they have a neighbor, that lives behind them, that is causing more drama.  She is totally trying to but their help.  This kind of person, I don't get.

DRAMA........

12/18/17 -- Ok, so there is a couple that live in the same building as I do, they claim to no like DRAMA, but....boy do they ever bring the DRAMA to my doorstep!!!!  Holy Cow, it's ridiculous the arguing they have been doing.  The woman is clinically depressed and he is bi-polar, however her depression is affecting him in a non-healthy way and she just is so blind to seeing this and I don't know how to help her see.  
  This woman has withheld any form of physical love from her husband. She has not only stopped wanting sex from him but she has stopped kissing, hugging, and all forms of showing love and affection to her husband.  He feels more like a slave being expecting to completely maintain the apt. all by himself while she does nothing.  [OK, now I get the whole, not feeling like doing anything, part.  I went thru a period of time when I didn't want to maintain the cleanliness of my apt.  All I could manage was keeping the kitchen clean because I had to cook.] However, when her children are with them, she NEEDS to step up and do more than her share, after all they are her children.
  Then there is the fact that I get two different stories from them.  When he comes to talk, he refrains from telling me the parts where he is playing video games, as to why he doesn't accomplish what he says he's gonna do.  Then she comes down and tells me what he was doing.  Then she always comes back to something her therapist has said about her husband, which seriously irritates me to no end.  I seriously don't know how to help them.  All I have been able to do is just listen, seriously these two are drama king/queen in this building.

SCAM!!!!!

12/15/17 --  I recently experienced a scam, that ALMOST cost me money that was given to me by my mom/from my little sister's "estate".
  Someone who I truly thought way my Aunt contacted me via Facebook messenger.  "She" told me that the she had recently acquired 50k thru a "US AID" attorney.  "She gave me a cell number to text to get the information.  I did and this exchange went on for a couple of days.  Anyway, I sent money via western union to someone on Florida, then was told to move it to Michigan.  So, I was texting and messaging and getting very frustrated.  That should have been my umpteenth clue that this was a scam, but I was still trusting that this was my aunt.  Anyway, my last trip to a Check into Cash store that also does Western Union wiring, he was the first and only person that asked me some pertinent questions because he could tell this could be a scam/fraud.  When I answered his question and told him the truth, cause I was told to "lie" about it.
  Thankfully, this man was trained very well, by Western Union, on how to spot a scam/fraud and he was able to get my money back.  This is the umpteenth time that I have been scammed/attempted frauded.  This scam was more elaborate than I have ever seen or experienced.  The man at the check into cash told me to get ahold of my Aunt to see what really is going on, cause he said that someone most likely hacked into to copied her facebook page and tried this same thing with others on her friends list.  I did get my Aunt's number from my mom and actually called her only to find out that one of her son's had already contacted her to tell her that she had been hacked and fixed her facebook so that couldn't happen again.  She was grateful but not as grateful as I am for getting my money back.  
  The whole scam was send money to get money, which should have been my first clue that something wasn't right.  Oh....well...a very wise and well trained western union agent caught the fraud and helped me to get my money back.  Now, I will be able to get the new tires on my car, that that money is earmarked for.
  So, be on the lookout for scams thru facebook and any other social media! It is pretty pathetic that there are people out there that seek out others in order to steel money from them!

Sorry, It's Been Too Long......

12/15/17 -- So, it has been kinda crazy, the last couple of weeks.  I know that it's been such a long time since my last posting.
  For two weeks I had been working the babysitting job and at a printing company, in their mailroom - sorting; in between the babysitting job.  The baby-sitting job is really early morning then til 5:45pm in the evening.  Which always gives me enough time to eat then prepare for bed.  I go to be early so I can get up early.
  However, the early part of this week, I had two late nights, which then makes me tired early in the morning when I gotta drive about 15 min. east to babysit.  Not a real good idea to drive and struggle to stay awake.  Thankfully, I was able to take naps when I needed to but I still had to get to bed early by the third night rolled around, cause I was just dragging.  The second night, I had to play "counselor" to a couple upstairs/across the hall from me; cause neither one of them are handling depression very well.
  The woman of the couple is clinically/severely depressed, the man of the couple is bipolar - anyway she really is struggling and he just can't seem to handle watching her struggle.  He takes pretty much everything to heart whenever there is an argument but they argue over the dumbest things when she is in this state.  Plus, her behavior is affecting him and she refuses to see it as it is.  Also, they have managed to get sucked into another marital relationship - which is the couple that is directly above me and across the hall from them.  That couple most likely shouldn't have even bothered to get married.  
  I gotta say, I feel like I have been drug into a soap opera that I just don't want any part of.  Thankfully, this is something that I have come far enough from that I don't have any problems trying to help them.  I just irritated when she can't seem to follow thru on something that she said she is going to do.  I do understand what she is going thru, even tho the circumstances are different.  Thankfully, over the last couple of days I have been left alone, by them.  I am still concerned about the two of them, but I am ok, when they can leave me alone, and work thru their own problems without involving me.
  Now I am not not working at the printing company, just babysitting.  I am ok with that because I know that i will get called back to that mailroom, they seem to like how fast I helped them get caught up.  I wasn't the only one to get them caught up, there was another woman that help, as well.

All at Once

12/2/17 -- So, this is December 2nd and I am wondering where this whole year has gone.
  A week ago, I ended up with 3 jobs all at once.  One was a childcare job that is a total of 4 hrs a day.  I get to a home by 6am and stay with an 8yr old making sure that she is ready for school, to which I take her.  Then I had gotten a cleaning job, just a one day thing, cleaning floors before the holiday, plus a sorting job back at a printing company that I worked for several months ago.
  I finally was able to start at the printing company this past Tuesday, by the time the drug screen was completed and finally getting in touch with the person at the staffing agency I was working thru.  The great thing about this job is it's working within the hours that I am doing the childcare job.
  The childcare job is only monday thru thursday, which is nice.  I am very glad that I am finally working.  My microsoft class is all done, however, I really want to be able to take another, one like the intermediate excel.