Well Then........

 10/26/20 -- Well then....I was supposed to start training for my job, this time last Monday.  This was supposed to be my second week of training. But....I at a single serve pizza for lunch on Sunday, (last week)  This pizza was a brand that I hadn't had before, well, what a mistake.  I ended up with gas after eating it til 11am the next day, Monday.  I was absolutely miserable, I couldn't belch, or fart or anything.  I didn't have anything to relieve it either.  I didn't sleep very well, if at all, all night long, Sunday night.  I did go get some rolaids at the closest gas station, to me, thank goodness, they had some.  I ended up taking like 4 of those rolaids, before I got any kind of relieve.  I had to tell my boss that I couldn't  work cause I was sick. Thankfully, they were willing to move my start date out two weeks.  So, I start on the 2nd of November, my training, that is a full week plus 4 days.  

  I can't wait to start working.  It will be great that I won't have to leave my apt to go to work.  I am still going to go swimming and the women's bible study so that I can still get what I need for being around people but not having to leave to go to work.  I will be able to work despite what the weather is doing.

  I had been talking to like 5 different guys, on google hangouts;  however, it is now down to one.  All the others found out that I won't fall for their con to get me to somehow help them with money.  One guy actually used the same excuse twice, to try to get me to become a middle person, in allegedly getting money to his son in the hospital.  Every one of these guys stopped talking to me when I told them "no".

Job

10/16/20 -- Well, the training for my job, starts on Monday, the 19th.  I just received the email that was told I would get, right before I start.  I am seriously looking forward to doing something that will be bringing money in and I won't have to leave the apt to go.  However, thankfully, I have my schedule crafted to allow for me to go to Bible study, where I attend church.  It's a women's study and allows for me to have fellowship with ladies that around the same age as I am.  Plus, I will still be going to church of course.  I will also be going swimming,too.  I just had to sign up for different times, on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday for the next two weeks.  Also, when I was signing up for the rest of October, part of November was there so I went ahead and signed up for the times that I knew I could because they will be scheduling me according to my availability.  So, I was able to sign up for Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Saturdays. The other two days are open because I don't know what I will be scheduled. Tuesday. and Thursday I go swimming real early, so I will be back in plenty of time for the training and the job. I am not working on Saturdays so my normal time, is what I signed up for.

   I am not sure if I mentioned that I have had (can't tell you how many) men contact me via Instagram,.  I don't know why, they seem to think it's a dating site or something, I guess.  There have been a number them that I have deleted and some that I have confirmed and ended up talking to them on google hangouts.  We ended up talking til they ask for money for one reason or another, when I tell them "no" then they get mad.  Them getting mad normally ends up with me blocking them on Hangouts because I don't need to see them insult me and such.  A great majority of the time they ended up being scammers, which is quite irritating to me.

  I don't know what it is about my profile, they seem to think that I am desperate, gullible or stupid, or something.  I am absolutely NONE of those things.  I have been on Instagram for quite a few years and it's only been over the last year or so that these men have been contacting me.  I am currently talking to one, who seems to be trying to convince me how much he loves me.  I don't doubt him (to a point) I told him that I need to see him face to face, like standing in front of me in order to really believe him.  His actions need to follow what he has been telling me.

  I have a problem with meeting guys on the internet because there really isn't any accountability for what they say.  They can tell me anything they want and they think I believe them, OK, I do give them the benefit of the doubt, to start with.  Pretty much every time, they claim to fall in love with me, pretty darn quickly, and for some reason, expect me to do the same thing.  Nope, can't do that, because it's the internet and they could be lying, for all I know.  For a lot of these guys, they have ended up asking me for money, so freaking irritating. 

 

Life

10/15/20 -- Sometimes life is just a pain in the butt!  I decided that I wanted to get a membership at the YMCA, rather than have it at Anytime Fitness.  The reason being, I very much prefer to swim versus walking.  So, I tome anytime fitness that I want my contract cancelled.  I knew there would be a cost, although I had forgotten.  Anyway, it's a $250 cancellation fee, which I think is a bit much, I guess because I think they shouldn't have a contract, at all, like the YMCA.  Anyway, I had made the necessary arrangements to pay the fee at the end of Sept. however I ended up not starting my job, til the 19th of this month.  I forgot to call anytime fitness and have them stop or put a hold on the money coming out of my account because I knew that there wasn't going to be enough for them to do anything with.  Well, guess what?!  They pulled the money out and now I am in the negative after I did call to put a stop to them taking the money out!  Then they go and take the monthly fee out, or try to, which then charges me a rather ridiculous fee for insufficient funds.

   Naturally, I called the bank then Anytime fitness, although I should have made the calls in reverse, Oh well. I am seriously hoping that the guy at Anytime Fitness was able to get their bank to reverse the funds and put a hold on taking anymore money out because if they keep trying the bank charges me a fee for insufficient funds which then put me in the negative even more.  So, when i get paid, I won't have enough to pay anything, let alone anytime fitness, because it's in automatic deposit.

   I haven't been in the negative, in my bank account, since I opened my very first account, many many years ago.  Things have changed on how that stuff is taken care of, too.   I seriously despise being in the negative, there quite awhile before I actually get my first paycheck and i am going to need cat litter, and gas money.  I think tho, that I can have my mom help me with both.  She could order the cat litter from chewy and have it sent to me, and just hand me the gas money, as she sometimes does.

   I was very successful in getting rid of all the stuff that I had sitting in bags and boxes.  I feel so much better in getting rid of that stuff, although I did find a box of books that i missed, in my coat closet.  I do have two boxes that I have to take a deal with.  One goes to the Kirby that my mom let me have and she didn't want back.  I took the attachments that she didn't want and I have a box with the rest of the attachments;  There is a guy up here, where I live, that takes vacuums and will either sell or get rid of, but he did tell me that the attachments are what he needs more than the actual vacuum.  The box of books I found, I don't mind taking to St. Vincent De Paul's resale store.  

   I gotta say that just a week and a half after thoroughly cleaning the hall and my bedroom carpet (including shampooing) I vacuumed again, and there was pretty much the same amount of dirt and cat hair on the floor.

  Since I started swimming, I have had more energy, more desire to get things cleaned up and maintain it.  The swimming has done a lot for my moral, as well.  I also know that not listening to the couple upstairs from me, complain about each other, is very helpful, 

Feeling better

 10/6/20 -- I was successful in getting a job. YAY!!! I am so thankful that I was successful, this time around.  I will be working from home, for a call center, for a company that is based here where I live.  I do have one more thing to purchase to enable me to work online; that is a usb headset, which will allow for me to take phone calls from the computer, and take orders.  I much prefer working from home, especially given that winter is coming up and I really despise going out and driving in the winter.  However, with my newish exercise routine I will be leaving the apt anyway.  

  My mom wanted me to get the membership at the YMCA, that I had talked to her about, so I did, with the money that she helped me out with.  Now, I have to keep it up.  The think is, I don't have to talk myself into going, I wake up with my alarm and even tho, I signed up to swim real early two days out of the week, I don't mind.  I actually look forward to swimming.  3 days of the week is a water aerobics class and the other 3 days is swimming laps and I use the water barbels.  Granted, I really only do the backstroke because I just can't seem to swim front crawl like i would have done when I was younger,  I could swim the front crawl with no problem, however, now it seems that with age, and the fact that my asthma, seems to be worse.  To go along with that I get a sense of panic, that as I get out of breath, so I just don't swim the front crawl.  I do use a noodle, it gives me an extra sense of security.  I do swim the back stroke, which is good and I use the noodle for that added security, in my head.

  I don't know what happened but I get a sense of panic when i can't touch the bottom of the pool, but not so bad that I can't swim to the deep end of the pool, swimming the whole length, that is.

  Anyway, since I started do this, swimming.  I have started feeling much better, in my mind, and my emotions.  Like, to the point of being motivated to actually get stuff accomplished in my apt.  Getting rid of stuff that has been sitting around waiting to be taken to GoodWill.  I did that last week.  I have cleaned my living room and shampooed the carpet from the door down the hallway, to the bathroom.  Yesterday, I cleaned my bedroom, which was in serious need of a cleaning and a vacuuming.  The next thing is to string the ethernet cord from the internet modem, in the living room, to my bedroom, where I will be working from.  I will get more silence, so to speak, in my bedroom.  I was given a very very long ethernet cord, which is plenty long enough to string from my living room into my bedroom and do it in such a way that it won't be tripped over and the cats won't be able to play with it.

  I will be able to continue going to the bible study for women, at the church I attend, that is 40 minutes way from me, too.