11/26/17 -- So, As much as I wanted to spend Thanksgiving with my "blood" family, that didn't work out (as per usual, here lately) but I didn't spend it completely alone. The actual day I was alone, but I knew that I was going to have a "Thanksgiving" dinner the next day, with a bunch of friends, so I was good. I even made a couple of things to take that I had never made before. One was a sweet potato cheesecake, which was pretty yummy, especially when you add the caramel sauce and the chopped almonds. The second thing was a homemade green bean casserole. That was pretty yummy, even though it wasn't as thick as it should have been.
The smoked turkey was super yummy, to me the skin is the best part. Anyway, I am not a huge fan of turkey but when it's smoked and super juicy then it is really good. The dinner also consisted of the sweet potato casserole, stuffing, greens, broccoli salad, and broccoli and rice casserole. Everything was super yummy.
I do finally have a job, actually two jobs.
I have a childcare job that is a total of 4 hours a day, 4 days a week; the other job is sort of full time back at a printing company, in my town. They finally called me back but it's only for a few weeks and they are willing to work within the hours of the childcare job, which is pretty nice.
This childcare job seemed to be the right time for the grandparents, they are taking care of their granddaughter. Apparently the former babysitter was one that smoked inside, didn't control the other 3 children she was supposed to be taking care of, and she did a lot of yelling. All of this was taking on toll on the 8 yr old between getting sick because of the smoke to the lack of sleep, and just not doing well, in school, it just wasn't a good situation for the little girl. Then there was the stress of worrying about their granddaughter, while at work, so that bad situation was taking a toll on the grandparents. When I started this past Monday, both grandparents had a good day at work, because they knew their granddaughter was safe. Their little granddaughter, is so adorable.
What I do is go to their place just before 6am, stay with the little girl til 7:30am and take her to school, then I go back at 3:00pm and picker her up from school, take her home, and stay there til her grandma comes home from work. It is those hours in between thatI will work at the printing company's mail room.
I am so very thankful for the two jobs, even tho one of them is only a couple weeks-ish.
There has been some movement in the situation between my son and I. I was able to send my little granddaughter a birthday card and he said that he was ok with me spending time with the girls and baking with them but he hasn't asked his questions so there hasn't been anymore movement in that area. I wish he would hurry up and ask his question so we could move on, but I can't rush him.
Sunday, November 26, 2017
Friday, November 17, 2017
A Spark of Hope.....
11/17/17 -- Well, Tuesday night I received a call from a staffing agency asking if I was still looking for work? I told them yes and she told me that the Printing Company that I had worked for several months ago, is needing some help for 3-4 weeks. I told her that i would definitely take the job, 3-4 or weeks or longer, I don't care, I need a job. Anyway, she said that she would have to call the supervisor of the mailroom to let him know that I could start as early as the next day but realistically, on Monday. She told me that she would get back to be by 5pm if she got ahold of the supervisor, otherwise the next morning.
As of this morning, I haven't heard a peep, for the staffing agency. If I haven't heard anything by the end of the day, today, I have plans on calling or message the family that has been my substitute "grandfamily", and see about going to their house and helping out the mom for awhile. I know that I will be kept quite busy with their family. I am just so tired of sitting in my apartment, I need to get out an help someone else.
That call had given me hope, but that hope is dwindling, a little each day that goes by.
There is this couple that is across the hall and upstairs from me, and boy, oh boy, are they a mess. By that, I mean, these two have brought quite the baggage into their marriage of only one year. She is battle depression due the the custody issues of her boys, with her ex-husband and various other issues going on in her life. Then there is her husband, who has been many ex-girl friends and has to be the most "messed-up" man that I have ever met. {emotionally}
This man is bi-polar which means that he suffers depression along with his wife, yet it is different. He has been deeply affected by the way he was raised and the way he has been treated by passed girlfriends. {what a mess} Somehow, I have become their personal counselors and their marriage counselor. Thankfully, this isn't as overwhelming and depressing and the household that I had worked in for about a year.
The woman calls me "ma" because, apparently, I seem like a mom to her. Her mom lives 3 hours away, and I just help them out with common sense things. The trust me and I guess I have shown myself to be a good friend. Her husband did me a huge favor by doing a brake job on the front end of my car. However, I still need calipers, which I just have to purchase, and him and his dad can put them one. There is also the tiny issue of needing tires, two of them, on the front.
Being friends with these two has been quite interesting. They have been quite dependent on his parents which seems to by a quite unhealthy alliance. His parents are quite a mess, as well.
As of this morning, I haven't heard a peep, for the staffing agency. If I haven't heard anything by the end of the day, today, I have plans on calling or message the family that has been my substitute "grandfamily", and see about going to their house and helping out the mom for awhile. I know that I will be kept quite busy with their family. I am just so tired of sitting in my apartment, I need to get out an help someone else.
That call had given me hope, but that hope is dwindling, a little each day that goes by.
There is this couple that is across the hall and upstairs from me, and boy, oh boy, are they a mess. By that, I mean, these two have brought quite the baggage into their marriage of only one year. She is battle depression due the the custody issues of her boys, with her ex-husband and various other issues going on in her life. Then there is her husband, who has been many ex-girl friends and has to be the most "messed-up" man that I have ever met. {emotionally}
This man is bi-polar which means that he suffers depression along with his wife, yet it is different. He has been deeply affected by the way he was raised and the way he has been treated by passed girlfriends. {what a mess} Somehow, I have become their personal counselors and their marriage counselor. Thankfully, this isn't as overwhelming and depressing and the household that I had worked in for about a year.
The woman calls me "ma" because, apparently, I seem like a mom to her. Her mom lives 3 hours away, and I just help them out with common sense things. The trust me and I guess I have shown myself to be a good friend. Her husband did me a huge favor by doing a brake job on the front end of my car. However, I still need calipers, which I just have to purchase, and him and his dad can put them one. There is also the tiny issue of needing tires, two of them, on the front.
Being friends with these two has been quite interesting. They have been quite dependent on his parents which seems to by a quite unhealthy alliance. His parents are quite a mess, as well.
Wednesday, November 15, 2017
30 Days
This is the the 30 days of Gratitude that the Women's Bible Study that I have been attending, has decided to do as a group.
This is probably one of the most different 30 days of challenges that I have seen. We are 15 days into this challenge, one thing that is a challenge is remembering to post it on the Facebook newsfeed with the hashtag. There are times that I have forgotten to get on Facebook, so then the next day I will double or triple post.
There is one thing that I have to say that I am thankful for: on my way to the Bible study earlier this morning, I had gotten stuck behind a truck hauling a farm implement, and as a result, I got to actually see a bald eagle, for the very first time, with my own eyes! It was absolutely awesome to see that great bird.
SHOULDERS
Sunday, November 12, 2017
Hummm Drumm
11/12/17 -- This morning just feels like another humdrum day. There are parts of me that just would rather not even leave the house but at the same time I have to cause I would go stir crazy if I didn't leave once in a while.
There is a huge part of me that is glad that i am not working, yet I need to be doing something because there is only so much cleaning can be done in my apartment.
Yet, if something doesn't come of these two job interviews that I had, then I know what I will be doing. I will be going to Beloit, which is another city about a half and hour to 45 minutes from where I live, to help out a family that has 8 little ones. I just can't handle sitting and doing nothing anymore.
There are three men that have taken an interest in me. The neighbor across that hall, of which I had to get him to back off, he was getting too handsy, which was quite irritating to me. There is a man out of Chicago, which a big city in the state of Illinois; that city is about 2 1/2 hours away and I seriously had to put the brakes on with him, too. This man is still very interested in see me, which puzzles me. The reason being is that he seemed on focused on the one thing that I am not ready to give. He texted me yesterday saying that he really missed me. Needless to say I am quite surprised. Then there is a man that contacted me thru Instagram. The interesting thing with the man from instagram is that he is currently in Algeria. He is a transplanted German that is working for an construction company that offered him a job building dams in Algeria, or so he tells me. Supposedly he is there a couple more months. Then, "the other shoe dropped" he got in a bind and asked me for money! At that point I strongly felt that he was scamming me, which wouldn't be the first time. Yet, he was quite insulted that I even thought that of him. We have continued talking which is surprising. Regardless, I don't have money to give him, despite what he seems to think. I have convinced him that i don't have it and even if I did I wouldn't be able to give any to him because I typically live paycheck to paycheck so no extra for him, period. The point is; I don't completely trust him due to messaging, altho we have actually spoke on the phone using google hangouts, which is pretty cool.
I have to admit that his voice sounds quite sexy to me. He has a voice and accent that I could listen to for hours on end. Needless to say, I really haven't figured him out, all the way, yet.
There is a huge part of me that is glad that i am not working, yet I need to be doing something because there is only so much cleaning can be done in my apartment.
Yet, if something doesn't come of these two job interviews that I had, then I know what I will be doing. I will be going to Beloit, which is another city about a half and hour to 45 minutes from where I live, to help out a family that has 8 little ones. I just can't handle sitting and doing nothing anymore.
There are three men that have taken an interest in me. The neighbor across that hall, of which I had to get him to back off, he was getting too handsy, which was quite irritating to me. There is a man out of Chicago, which a big city in the state of Illinois; that city is about 2 1/2 hours away and I seriously had to put the brakes on with him, too. This man is still very interested in see me, which puzzles me. The reason being is that he seemed on focused on the one thing that I am not ready to give. He texted me yesterday saying that he really missed me. Needless to say I am quite surprised. Then there is a man that contacted me thru Instagram. The interesting thing with the man from instagram is that he is currently in Algeria. He is a transplanted German that is working for an construction company that offered him a job building dams in Algeria, or so he tells me. Supposedly he is there a couple more months. Then, "the other shoe dropped" he got in a bind and asked me for money! At that point I strongly felt that he was scamming me, which wouldn't be the first time. Yet, he was quite insulted that I even thought that of him. We have continued talking which is surprising. Regardless, I don't have money to give him, despite what he seems to think. I have convinced him that i don't have it and even if I did I wouldn't be able to give any to him because I typically live paycheck to paycheck so no extra for him, period. The point is; I don't completely trust him due to messaging, altho we have actually spoke on the phone using google hangouts, which is pretty cool.
I have to admit that his voice sounds quite sexy to me. He has a voice and accent that I could listen to for hours on end. Needless to say, I really haven't figured him out, all the way, yet.
Saturday, November 11, 2017
Getting Tired
11/11/17 - I had two more interviews this past week. My mom asked me what my thoughts were after the first interview; yet I couldn't tell her because I just am so discouraged with the whole process. So far, every interview that I have had hasn't panned out, which has been discouraging and irritating. So, I am not even looking forward to getting either one of the jobs. However I have prayed that i would get the job in Janesville.
This is about what I feel. I will say that I enjoy taking the class that I taking, over the last couple of months.
This is about what I feel. I will say that I enjoy taking the class that I taking, over the last couple of months.
Thursday, November 9, 2017
Feeling Discouraged
11/9/17 -- So, as of right now I am feeling quite discouraged! I dislike/hate being unemployed and I don't understand what the deal is. I have been to numerous interviews only to not get another interview or any form of call back.
On the one hand I don't mind not leaving my apartment because I kinda am a homebody but at the same time I need to work in order to support myself and I do enjoy some socialization, meaning I do like being around people, at least for a period of time. There is only so much housecleaning I can do. With only one person living in my apartment it doesn't get very dirty.
There has been progress where my son is concerned. First, I was able to send my little granddaughter a birthday card because my daughter in-law gave me their address. I had initially sent a message via Facebook messenger, to my son requesting their address to send a card but never got a response, so then I decided to try texting my daughter in-law and to my surprise she gave me their address. Then a day or two later, after my granddaughter's birthday, she sent me a picture of my adorable granddaughter handing a cashier the money I had included in the card, to pay for a puzzle that she wanted.
She didn't have to do that but I am quite thankful that she did because it showed me that she received the card and made sure that my granddaughter got it, too. She also mentioned that she hopes the her husband (my son) will let me meet my little granddaughter, soon, because she's pretty great.
That gave me the idea and the courage to ask my son if he would let me spend time with my granddaughters and bake with them. It took him a day to respond but he said that he wouldn't have a problem with that but that he thinks that some things need taken care of. He then asked if he could ask some questions. I told him that it was fine to ask the questions. Now, I haven't seen any questions, yet. So, I am patiently/impatiently waiting for the questions to come. The time of year is the time that I want to bake and I really want to do some baking with my granddaughters so I am really hoping and praying that he responds so and responsibly. Meaning, I don't want to rehash anything! I really want to just move on from the crap! This has been along time ago and, as far as I am concerned, we just need to move on and work on being a family.
On the one hand I don't mind not leaving my apartment because I kinda am a homebody but at the same time I need to work in order to support myself and I do enjoy some socialization, meaning I do like being around people, at least for a period of time. There is only so much housecleaning I can do. With only one person living in my apartment it doesn't get very dirty.
There has been progress where my son is concerned. First, I was able to send my little granddaughter a birthday card because my daughter in-law gave me their address. I had initially sent a message via Facebook messenger, to my son requesting their address to send a card but never got a response, so then I decided to try texting my daughter in-law and to my surprise she gave me their address. Then a day or two later, after my granddaughter's birthday, she sent me a picture of my adorable granddaughter handing a cashier the money I had included in the card, to pay for a puzzle that she wanted.
She didn't have to do that but I am quite thankful that she did because it showed me that she received the card and made sure that my granddaughter got it, too. She also mentioned that she hopes the her husband (my son) will let me meet my little granddaughter, soon, because she's pretty great.
That gave me the idea and the courage to ask my son if he would let me spend time with my granddaughters and bake with them. It took him a day to respond but he said that he wouldn't have a problem with that but that he thinks that some things need taken care of. He then asked if he could ask some questions. I told him that it was fine to ask the questions. Now, I haven't seen any questions, yet. So, I am patiently/impatiently waiting for the questions to come. The time of year is the time that I want to bake and I really want to do some baking with my granddaughters so I am really hoping and praying that he responds so and responsibly. Meaning, I don't want to rehash anything! I really want to just move on from the crap! This has been along time ago and, as far as I am concerned, we just need to move on and work on being a family.
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