Covid-19

11/15/20 -- Well now, where I live, we are now in the season of switching vehicles from one side of the street to the other on the even and odd days, this continues til midnight of March 31, next year. It has to do with the snow fall and the plows. When the vehicles are all on one side of the street, the other side can be completely cleared, then we are supposed to move them to the cleared side so the plows can then clear the side where the cars were moved from.  If we don't move our cars every day before midnight, we get a ticket for $20, for parking on the wrong side of the street.  As much as, I despise going out in the bitter wintery weather, its good to start the car every day to keep things moving and such, also it is good for me to get outside for the fresh air and a bit of vigorous exercise of clearing the car off and moving it.  Not necessarily my idea of total fun, but it kinda is annoyingly fun.

   Ok, I bet some of you are wondering where I stand or how I feel about this covid-19 illness that is making the rounds.  Well, this is actually the first "pandemic" in my lifetime.  There have been many others in our country's history, measles, smallpox, black plague, and yellow fever. I am sure there are others, I have forgotten, anyway.... There is quite a different in this one and the era we live in.  We, live in a time where travel is quite easy from state to state, city to city, town to town, and even country to country. Back in our history with those other communicable diseases, it took longer to get a neighbors house, let alone a town or city, so the disease was typically contained and often decimated an entire community.  Nowadays, because we have pretty easy access to other towns, cities, states, and countries, diseases like this will travel further and faster.  This is a virus that will morph and change just like the "so called regular flu".  That is why the "flu vaccine" has to be given every year: even then when the vaccines are made, they are guessing on the strains that will pop up each and every season.

  I feel like people haven't ever really taken precautions to slow down the spread of the normal flu, so why would they so anything they are told to slow down this virulent version?  Every winter, there are people that go to work, sick and don't use hand sanitizer on their hands after they have blown their noses, children aren't taught/made to sneeze into their elbows and aren't taught to blow their noses early enough, so they don't run around with noses running and wiping all over the place. That is simply gross.

  Now, I am not in total agreement with this wearing a mask/face covering because I don't 100% believe that they work.  Even the CDC has said that they are as effective as we have been told by many other sources.  I haven't worn a mask/face covering unless I am going to a smaller store where it's difficult to have the 6ft. spacing or if I know that I have to be in a place for a long period of time.  If I am going in and out quickly then I typically haven't been wearing them.  I don't like the masks because I feel like I am not breathing very well.  However, I will wear a bandanna or a neckgator when I get one of those.  

  I will tell you that if I am sick, I will not go out without a face covering of some sort.  I have no one, close to me, that can run my errands for me, so I usually have to do them myself.  However, I have been taking advantage of delivery services more now.  Like I can order and have my pet food and such delivered to me, I can order groceries online then pick them up, they are delivered to my car, which I am doing today, because of the pain and swelling in my toes and upper part of my left foot. 

  I DO NOT IGNORE the severity of the illness, however, I absolutely refuse to live in fear.  I have a God that is so much bigger than this illness, He is still in control of all that is going on.  I believe that He is allowing this illness for a reason, most likely to get EVERYONE'S  attention who hasn't committed their lives completely to HIM.

  Please please, stay safe and healthy.  Please keep in mind that your decisions also effect others around you, not just you.  We do not live in bubbles, our decisions do effect others, in a ripple effect.

Change Starts with each of us individually

 

Church the change starts with us

Church the change starts within us individually then together.

 

Working

11/14.20 -- Good morning, everyone.  I hope this find everyone healthy both physically and mentally.  I tell you what....I do feel much better now that I am working and earning an income.  I am working from home, for a mail order company that is based in my town.  I think they have to be one of the pioneers of mail order companies, lol.  Not too sure about that, but anyway----I started the training for this job on 11/2/20 and was released to solo on 11/12/20.  I answer the computer phone and handle customers wanting to make payments on their bills.  I actually don't mind doing that; the awesome thing about that is I won't have to go out in the weather, when it gets bad in the winter, making travel difficult.  When roads are difficult traveling, I can come into my bedroom/office(during the day), sit down set up my computer and start working.  The only thing that I don't like, is that there isn't quite enough of a break between calls to finish up the call you're working, like making a note on the account that the customer called in about. 

  The best thing is that I am finally earning an income to support myself, which is huge for my mental state.  As much as I was doing decently in keeping a positive attitude, trusting that God has the right job for me and that I just had to wait for His timing, it was getting annoying.  Especially, when my upstairs neighbors did nothing (pretty much) but take advantage of their jobs  What do I mean by that?  Well, let me explain...This couple works for a rather popular retail store about an hour way from where we live.  The woman has been "off" for pretty darn close to a year, using a variety of "reasons" for her being off; her husband has been behaving like a puppy dog, and staying home just because his wife has been.  He acts as tho he can't live without her by his side 24/7 which is absolutely ridiculous. He just likes trying to live off of other people, like for instance, his mom.  Over this past year, they have pretty much exhausted every resource of money they have had access to. I will list them....their 401ks, rent help from the county, and other help from his mom.  She finally decided that she had to get herself hyped up and prepared to go back to work.  All during this time they have had ridiculous marriage problems, which to me is caused by the both of them.  They call me seperately and put me on conference calls to listen the the two of them complain about each other. 

  I have found myself getting so bogged down, mentally, by their complaint, and not listening too much if any if my advice.  Their negativity was just getting to me, but at the same time, there are times when I enjoy their company.  I get laughs and the occasional free meal.  Them finally going to work has been a relief to me, as well, as my own job.  Now I get a lot less complaining from them because they are working and so am I.

Life

 10/31/20 --Yesterday was my youngest granddaughter's birthday.  Once again, I wasn't invited to any party or shown any pictures of my beautiful young granddaughter.  My son is so stinkin stubborn and it is quite irritating!  Yet, it doesn't really do me much good to be pushy or to get upset because I can't force him to do anything.  He is quite old enough to make decisions for himself and his family.  I do have a sneakin suspicion that my daughter in-law has something to do with his decision, right now.  I just wish she would get over herself and let us reconcile and let me see the girls, most especially my youngest Granddaughter.  They both are depriving the girls of a grandma and that, to me, just isn't right or fair.

  My sister is basically, doing the same thing.  I haven't had any chance to be an Aunt to my nieces or nephews.  All these years have gone by and I haven't ever spent any time with them individually or together.  They all know who I am but don't know me.  To this day, my sister and I still haven't done what our youngest sister, who passed away 3 yrs ago, asked us to do.  That was her last wish for us, to make up and get along.  We haven't done any of that.  So, consequently, I feel quite alone, on my own family.  Between my son not wanting anything to do with me and my sister not wanting anything to do with me, it's quite lonely.

  That is one of many reasons, why it's so stinking irritating when me find me, want money and then leave when I don't give them what they want.  Like, I am supposed to bail their a@#$@# out of whatever trouble they have gotten themselves into, allegedly.

  I do start my new job, tomorrow.  Trust me, I am not going to eat anything to cause me any trouble, either.  I made myself some homemade tomato soup and chicken alfredo, for the weekend.  However, I have reason to think that it'll last me into the week, which is fine.  I am also having grilled cheese sandwiches with the tomato soup.

   Honestly< I can't wait to start working, I don't even care that I am not leaving my apt, to work.  I will still be getting out of the apt, when I go swimming and to church/bible study.  However, for the next two weeks I won't be going to either bible study or church because I don't have the gas, as far as Sundays are concerned, but my training schedule won't let me go to bible study. One I am actually scheduled for the normal time, I will then be able to go to mid week bible study.