Slowing Down

5/27/21 --Here we go, now is the time of year where we have to either take a leave of absence or reduce our hours  and the call volume drops thru the summer.  I thought we had to do both so I reduced my hours and took 2 weeks off, but then received an email asking which on i wanted. Told her to reduce hours.  I don't think that I can handle 2 weeks off in a row.  The way I reduced my hours still leaves me 24 hours a weeks, for sure.  I will update my availability in the fall tho.   

    I have been talking this man in who is now working in Alaska.  I thought he had stopped due to my not helping hime with money.  After about a month he finally called me and had told me that he had lost the internet for a while. 

7/21/21

  Well, this man that I was talking to, has pretty much stopped talking to me.  Basically, he claimed to have went to Alaska, for an engineering job, with an oil rig, with Exxon Mobil.  Now, he went up there, allegedly, in March ish. We talked a couple times while he was supposedly, up there, but when I wasn't able to help him with money to get his equipment up to him from Canada, he slowly stopped calling me.  So, he went from claiming to be, not like those past men that have contacted me but he has proven that he is.  I haven't heard from him in months, something of which I am not surprised about.

  There is another man that I first met when I was on e-harmony.com.  After several years of occasionally chatting with him on google chat and him stopping by for a couple of hours, I decided that I have had enough.  I just want something more that what he has been giving me, and what he is able to.  He is so married to his work.  He pretty much works 7 days a week. He travel all over the same state that I work in, but I just can't get my head around the fact that he works so freaking much.  Any way, I am so ready for something better than he can offer.  So, consequently, I finally broke down, messaged him to let him know that he no longer had to worry about me.  That I want more than he can give me, right now.  I let him know that he no longer has to feel pressured to try and get to where he is close enough to be able to stop by to spend time with me.  Surprisingly enough, he didn't even offer a response, an "I am sorry" or anything.