8/25/16 -- So, I went an did something that I am still very surprised that I did. Shocked, even. I went and signed onto a dating site, I even paid for a one month subscription, couldn't really afford it but I sacrificed, figuring it is most likely the only way I will meet a single man in my age group. The second day I already had a bunch of nibbles. I am currently texting 2 guys. One man wants to move way too fast for my liking the other one is really "speaking my language". He talked like I was his girlfriend or wife. He has sent me the most beautiful texts and emails. I can't remember where his lives but I think it's somewhere down south.
I am so amazed at myself for stepping out of my comfort zone but I just did it-didn't think about, I just did it. My counselor was quite surprised as well. It is another way that I am showing that I am ready to move on, by actually taking a step towards doing so. I am still quite scared but I just figure that I have to do something as I have yet to meet that special someone, and I have been single now for 10+ years and I am just wanting to be married.
I don't go to bars, and there aren't too many things that I do alone because it is just too boring plus I am a bit leery. I am not a very out going at first, I am more on the shy side so stepping outside my comfort zone and doing it alone.
Also, I am still struggling with stuff, so to step out on my own I am not quite sure that I am ready to go full bore. Taking these steps is so scary and I am still plagued with the inability to accept compliments. I am also, oh I don't know, I think that I can come up with excuses out of the wazoo but what it boils down to is fear.
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