Another Round

7/22/16 -- This morning I went to the Pain Specialist and had her do another round of the "360 nerve block" which is a series of small injections of a local anesthetic all the way around my head, at specific nerve intersections, I guess.  I had this done back at the end of March and a couple of weeks ago another dizzy spell accompanied by a longer lasting headache was the indication to me that it was time to have it done again.  I went early enough that it wasn't too hot or humid, yet.  This Dr. is young and she is a beautiful Dr. too; she told me that she had the privilege of being trained by the Dr. who wrote many books on headaches.  The neurologist that I see at my local clinic told me, when I went to see him about a 3 weeks or a month ago, that I was his second patient that has had success with that 360 nerve block and mentioned the desire to be trained to do them too.  I don't know if he actually will but it would be nice, then I wouldn't have to drive an hour to have them done.  However, having to have them done every 3 or 4 months isn't too bad.  Also, it isn't too difficult to get to this clinic, I say that because I don't like driving in high traffic places unless I know exactly where I am going, is pretty simple to get to.
   I had previously wrote something about shame, in my previous blog.  The more that I look at that print out the more I think that is what I feel when I battle about going to my local church again, on Sundays.  Shame because of the stuff that has happened between my son and I after kinda bragging about how close we were when he was younger.  It seems to be rather subtle tho, at the same time I kinda feel like I have put up a wall or something because I won't let myself cry to the extent that I used to when I had sessions with my first counselor.  My current Counselor and I hit upon a sensitive spot but I wouldn't allow myself to really cry, I did have tears in my eyes but my Counselor mentioned that I was holding back and I agreed with him.  I guess maybe it may be time to allow myself to let go of all the emotion that I have been holding onto all this time.  I really haven't wanted to allow myself to breakdown and cry for a long time.  I have been tired of crying and so I haven't allowed myself to do that in a long time.
   I have been tossing around some thoughts of Culinary School.  I am very interested in learning more about cooking and baking, I know there are things that I don't know and so want to learn.  I am kinda thinking about a career change and even a complete relocation if that is what is required.  I love to bake and cook and I am in need of a huge change, I really need to do something, what I haven't figured out yet.  I do know what I like to do so maybe it's time to look into changing things up.  The only visible obstacle is money, that is something that I don't have much of, but maybe there are scholarships or something.  I checked out the Culinary Institute of America and they have something called Boot Camp that looks interesting and even fun.  I am not a beginner but I know there are things that I can still learn, that I want to learn.